No matter how hard you try.
Yes, my head is all messed up. I try to live my life, but something is always wrong. I try so hard to get done what needs to get done just to survive without anyone noticing that I’m there; But how can I be invisible when my head is so obviously messed up?
Dealing with chronic pain is a serious strain on your sanity. One moment can change every aspect of your life, literally turn everything upside down.
Even if you find a way to fight through the pain and fake a smile and leave the house, you face the stigma of chronic pain and its treatment- is it real? You must be faking, it can’t be that bad, you’re just a drug addict, living off “the system”, just a freeloader, lazy, just don’t want to work… The list goes on and on.
Do people seriously think we enjoy constant, unrelenting pain? That we like the side effects of the medications that our pain management specialists have prescribed? There really are many people that believe that we are happy living out our lives being unable to participate in activities we previously enjoyed, unable to play with and/or even care for our own children and grandchildren, and being shunned by friends and relatives, even shattering longstanding relationships and marriages.
None of us suffering from chronic pain asked to be in the position we are left in. Every one of us would give anything to have their former life back.
Don’t lose faith? Easier said than done.
So true. I keep trying to outrun my life, but everything hurts, so I really can’t run, so my life just barrels over me like a steamroller. I need a damn nap.